Absolution
So this is it...my absolution, for making you feel unwanted, for making you feel unloved. Honey this is not true, you know that, your heart knows that. But you denied them blatantly, throwing it at my face that I have been bad and ignored you for some time. Is there someone new or is it because you've finally spread your wings and you don't need me anymore? Now that you've got friends, now that you think this someone new would love you better. So what is this, my own personal remorse? I have to take you out my system, my heart, my soul, I have to reinvent my past to exclude you from them, 'cause you even abhor the sight of my name next to yours, and to be connected to you again, is the death of you. You'll be happy now to know that I'm going through what you told me what I put you through, unwanted, unloved. But worse of all, you know what, what's worse? I know you could tell and it made you feel happy that I'm going through hell for letting you go. That you want me to let you go, you beg me to let you go. You even make ridiculous excuses about letting you stepped out of our cage of love, about letting you go. I didn't, I never did. It hurts, you know, for making me feel this way, for making outrageous statements that it's my fault for making your love wane. If you don't love me anymore, just say so, don't make excuses, don't make me hate you more now than feel the hurt of having to let you go, for having hurt you, for having to fall for you and love you. I'll make my own, thank you.
So here I am again, back to my cynical self, back to my tower, back to my island, putting back on my mask that you hate. So, never again, never again, blue, never again.
So here I am again, back to my cynical self, back to my tower, back to my island, putting back on my mask that you hate. So, never again, never again, blue, never again.
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